Fitspiration?

So I have been listening to a lot of Gwen Stefani songs lately and looking at her, she is so freakin' gorgeous, I want to be like her so badly. So my first goal, shape up. Now, I've been working extra hard to watch calories (which for both my mom and I don't really seem to do crap, I can keep under 1200 calories a day and still not loose weight) but also I have been working out extra too. Tuesday I did yoga and general stretching and that evening was dragon boat practice. Dragon boating kicked my butt pretty good since it had been two weeks since last going (lots of stuff going on in the family). But then today I did lifting and then a little bit of stationary bike and am getting ready to do some push-ups, possibly try to do the push-up and clap (don't know if it will work well though).

Anyway I actually looked up "thinspiration" first, but then saw something called "fitspiration" I am now looking every where for this, because in reality, I am never going to look like Gwen Stefani no matter how hard I try, my hip bones are far too wide for that. I just want to slim down to my hip bones, I know I'm curvaceous, but why can't I be curvaceous and fit at the same time?

I'm house sitting right now which means I have an entire house to be as loud or crazy as I want to be and not disturb anyone, either while working out or writing music. Hopefully this will be a good thing. However my online psychology class is taking up a lot of time and effort out of things I could be doing more of. If I didn't have to sit at the computer I could take a book and sit on the bike and read for an hour, but oh no, I need to spend at least 2-3 hours a day in front of the computer thanks to this class.

Well, that's just a quick update. A lot is going on, but I am going to get fit, I am going to lose weight, I am going to finally be happy with the way I look. No one is going to call me fat again.