The Internet is for Emo College Zumba Dancers

So I've been looking around thinking: ugh, why are all these blogs so emo!?! And then I realize how much of a hypocrite I must sound like because, I mean, look down... my blogs are emo too. I think it's because the internet gives us this false sense of "Say whatever you want to say" which to an extent is fine, unless it transfers into your everyday life, then people might start not calling you back or inviting you to parties.
Which sounds horrible, but if I had to listen to me talk like how I talk when I come to rant in a blog, I wouldn't want to be friends with myself. Ever.
And yes, sure, everyone has "those days"... you know, the ones where the entire world is against you and nobody understands how you feel? But that's why I use this blog I think... so that I can rant and rave, get it off my chest, and then forget about the whole ordeal.

Like now, I'm anxiously awaiting a reply from a community college about being accepted because I've decided to hell with the last university I attended, I'm staying closer to home and getting my ASN (associates degree of science in nursing) and then going to work. I should have just gone for my ASN to begin with because honestly I've never been a big fan of school and I am just SO ready to have a job and be out in the work place doing some good. I'm done with worrying about will I make a B or an A in this last psych class... so so very done.

I looked up some Zumba videos on youtube and am in love!! I love dancing and I want to work out, Zumba seems like a perfect solution! The only problem is that I don't have 60 dollars to buy either the work out DVD sets nor do I have 55 dollars for the month long, 2-days-a-week class that is offered in my hometown.
Soooo for now I will resort to copying people's moves on youtube videos and trying to figure it out by myself. I'm a quick learner so I'm not too concerned. Doing Zumba on top dragon boat training and my stretching (somewhat yoga) I am really hoping to just drop 5 pounds. I've been in the 138-142 range for a year now and I'm sick of it.
I want to be at least 135 again.... if I could get to 130 or even 125 I would be ecstatic... but I've tried loosing before and it never moves from my current range... I just don't want to be let down again. I really hate my weight... and I feel and extremely emo blog coming on... so I'll leave it at that.

Ciao