I realize I am not popular in real life, or on the internet. I realize I never will be. So why do I keep trying like maybe if I keep trying it will get me anywhere? Maybe I need to make more things like this where I hide my real identity, maybe then I can make up someone I'm not and people will like that more. I just don't know what to do anymore. I want someone to talk to I guess and mom has always been there for me but it's just that there are some things I can't tell ANYONE. I can't tell mom, she's just a little harsh in her help. I'm single now so I have no one to turn to on that side of things. My friends don't follow the same faith so they won't help me by quoting the bible which was most of the help I got in Toledo.
Now I feel like I am just lost. I started a novena to St. Jude hoping that that will some how help me but I'm not so sure. I am feeling very much like a desperate cause though.
Will I ever find something to live for again?
I would love to speak with you in private e-mail if you need someone to talk to. I don't share my name on the internet either, so if you want someone to come along side you that loves the Lord and will speak his Truth into your life, you feel free to e-mail me. puremommyextract at gmail dot com.
ReplyDeleteAnd let me just say right now that you should not listen to the voice that tells you that you are not popular and you should be someone else. That is the voice of the enemy plain and clear. I don't know much about you, but I know that you were created by God Himself and that means you are wonderfully and fearfully made. You are a creature of purpose with a soft spirit that makes you sensitive. This was so that you would be sensitive to the Lord's voice and His heart. The Lord wants you to know that you should stop waiting on Him because He is waiting for you. Waiting for you to see what a wonderful woman after His own heart He has made. Listen carefully so that He can direct your steps.