Last night I played a prank on two boys with two of my girl friends. We ripped up lots of paper into tiny pieces and put them into bowls and then threw them on the boys when they opened their doors after we knocked. At first of course I was afraid of getting thrown from the window, the usual, but now I really ticked one off I feel like. He hasn't responded to my text message and I just feel like he's overall annoyed with me. I hate when people are mad at me or don't like me. I can't explain it and I know I should let it go but... I kind of was starting to really like this guy. He's just so cool and pretty nice to me when we get to hang out. Idk, I just was really starting to make a new friend and now I feel like I'm never going to be able to get close to guys.
It's just so awkward since my break-up... single life is not exactly as cracked up as it sounds to be. Don't get me wrong, I'd rather be single than still living the hell I was in with my ex but I just really liked this guy and now I feel like he hates me.
But I deserve it. I always do. And it always happens. This is why I don't step out of my shell, I just can't get away with it like my more outgoing friends can. And I don't understand it, it's not fair! I do everything I can to be the nicest person to people and then I do one harmless prank (which by the way I suggested paper over my other friends suggestion of water) and now look at what it's done. I get completely ignored.
I know I must sound like such a whiny little girl. I don't know how to present myself on this blog without sounding like one of ... THOSE girls.... the attention hog, goody-two-shoes, has-to-have-every-guy girls... I'm not like that. But I'm sure it sounds like it.
Why can't Prince Charming just be here NOW God? I'm so sick of waiting!
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