I really can't help it. I want to find a guy, a great guy, the best guy. Where is he? I've been looking, and any time I think I find a guy who's great, there's those things that start popping up. He cusses, he is immature, he is fussy, he is stupid. Ladies, you know what I'm talking about, right? Just those things, you didn't notice before, but now they are every where. Well... there's a new thing with one guy... he's just so... idk. I feel like sometimes he really doesn't mind my company, he'll come into my room and hang out and talk to me, but then other times he will be in such a rush to go some place or do something else. It just irks me. And then there's this other guy, but he cusses and since I have a problem with cussing (used to at least) I can't ever be with a guy who can just cuss freely in front of a lady. Or at least, that's my new thought.
Guys, they just don't understand. And I'm trying to understand it myself I guess, but I am really saving myself this time. I am keeping myself pure for the man that is going to put an engagement ring followed by a wedding ring on my left hand ring finger and mean it. I am done with little boys who don't know what life is or who don't love God or who can't commit. I am done. God, please help me because I need you to keep me in check and keep my patients up. I want to wait for the perfect guy. Today, that one guy, that I caught eyes with, he was so cute and we smiled at each other and it was nice... but God, I'm never going to see him again. What if he was the one? It felt really nice to smile at him. Or maybe, he's a total jerk, and I'll never know. I just don't understand. I am trying to wait.
But waiting is hard.
